Not everyone gets a chance to lay under the sight of shining stars,
Not everyone gets a chance to love someone without any scars.
Not everyone gets a chance to fill the floor full of colours,
Not everyone gets a chance to dance with full vigour.
Not everyone gets a chance to play in mud in rain,
Not everyone gets a chance to witness themselves painting a wall without any vain.
Not everyone gets a chance to engage themselves in playful silly acts where you can be yourself,
Not everyone gets a chance to live every moment.
Not everyone gets a chance to light a life with fire,
Not everyone gets a chance to choose the colour of flower.
Not everyone gets a chance to relive those memories who flirts with each other,
Not everyone gets a chance to steal away love from life that didn't belong to him/her.

People do all the things according to their convenience. For them, others don't matter. They matter only till the time, they are good for their purpose. Sometimes, it makes us feel so sick when we think of things and people around us. It becomes so difficult to judge them, but then that's what we call life. We meet all kind of people and it's for us to decide on whom to trust. Trust in itself is such a huge word. It has the power to shake away the boundaries of relationships. People do nothing but lie and fake. They are nothing but double-faced. And nowadays, people even like being lied to because they have found it as a medium of escaping reality. They like running away from things in a search of a better wold where they lead a life with only lights, that, give them inspiration to live and light brightness in their own world. Everyone likes being secured and lead their upcoming days with only love and care. But it is hard to find a key, that leads them to that point. People are so used to obscure things around them that they have become immune to things that would hurt them. Things don't matter to them anymore. Even if they do, that is because of the little feelings left inside them that causes that adrenaline rush. I think it's more biological that causes a little change inside a human behavior. There is nothing much emotional thing left that would elate those feelings that have died with fakeness around. We say that Rome wasn't built in a day. Similarly, it takes time to build things around and it takes a second or a minute to break everything around. But then what goes around, comes around. If you have gone through sufferings, there might come a day when you will see only beauty around. You might strike someone who will make you believe in everything again, who builds everything that once was broken, who lights up everything and never gives you chance to bring in the word *doubt* with things. But such an angel only exists in stories and not in reality because God has given us the power to believe only in ourselves and no one else. But who wouldn't like to have an angel who brings in faith and love ?

There is no way that I can get over you..

i try harder and harder..

still i can't stop thinking about you..

the memories kill me every moment deep inside..

i know you wouldn't come back but still in my heart nobody but YOU resides..

my love for you increases everyday and everynight..everything looks worthwhile but eveything can't get alright.. 

these particular days and nights reminds me more about you making everything difficult..

everything is dark and rough ruining me every second and every minute..

my love for you is till eternity not knowing why..i remain in your world making my world wry..i promise myself everyday to kick you out because you couldn't love me back..

i l make my blue world beautiful by not turning back..

In the hope of ray, to find something good for ourselves, we keep on trying delving ourselves and I find no harm in doing that. I personally believe that we all have this strive to achieve something that at the end of the day makes us conciliate the longing that we carry to feel worthy and in that process to find ourselves, to find the material that we carry deep inside us but which doesn't come on surface, we try so many channels. But the channel which takes us to our destination is always bleak and hard to find. But what I figured it out, though I am still on the journey to search that passage which makes me reach to that x-point made me realized that everything is interesting and frustrating to reach that X-point. I keep on trying anything and everything to figure out myself which brings the feeling of perkiness inside me. I do that regularly thinking about it, dreaming and fantasizing about it, sometimes even executing it, though while executing, I sometimes fail to complete the task or in case even if I do it, I fail to get the success or even if I get the success, I fail to carry it further. But I find no harm even doing it this way, for that was never my way which I eventually figured it out. I still keep on finding something novel to explore myself and exploring yourself is alarming and fruitful for someone has rightly said that we are the best judge to know ourselves. Experiences-that is the key term. What I feel, that we should try everything  that we want us to try. Why to leave something that we want to do badly and madly then. I mean we should at least once give it a shot so that we don't regret it later in our lives. And even in case we fail later, we will at least be exculpated of the feeling that we didn't try. Try out every possible way to reach that one thing out even not knowing what the thing is. And doesn't matter even in case you get lost. Confusion is the crux of everything. My mom always tells me that getting lost means that you are near to the termination of confusion which implies to the beginning of the world that you are searching for. So why not go for everything that you think may take you to the world of wonders. :)

nikzz :)   

Okay, now this strike my mind while talking to a silly friend of mine .. A GIRL'S FANTASY .. although it was always there in my subconscious mind, sewing and adorning my little world, actually not that little.. but while talking to her, she made me realize that almost all girls think alike .. now every single girl would cherish this while reading it and every single guy would get astonish after reading these few desires of cute little girls for it is all pink .. now fantasy doesn't go hand in hand carrying a termination letter  .. if you get into a girl's fantasy world, you seriously would get flabbergasted seeing how wide a girl can think and embellish her world with different things she adores like her nail pants. The ride to her fantasy world can be done even on a bicycle and even on a limousine with a driver wearing a pink color uniform ;)
A girl may seem tough from outside striving to fulfill her dreams, but deep inside she would be like the world's softest toy whom you would wanna hug throughout your day, for her innocence wouldn't let you go away and her smile would grace your veil.
A girl's fantasy world is the most colorful one with all the cute colors like pink, pink and pink.. okay she may add on colors like light purple, light purple and light purple .. okay at max sky blue.. or white as well .. not beyond that .. soft colors brings effervescence inside them .. everything starts twinkling on it's own .. a pink world with a bit add ons of colors mentioned above with a rainbow on top forever in the sunshine .. rain comes whenever the girl wants it to come .. i mean it is subject to her mood .. the weather always stays romantic and beautiful .. no compromises are done related to the weather .. all ice cream parlors stay open 24*7 .. it is mandatory .. and then a chocolate amusement park is present .. no sickness prevails in a girl's fantasy land .. although doctors looks hot but just because sickness looks tacky, so we prefer to eradicate doctors. All malls are opened 24*7 for a girl can feel the need of shopping anytime and most importantly all outlets needs to have the best collection every time. And all the girls have the liability to eat whatever they want and they don't put on weight. It is a land of orchids. Orchids are present everywhere. Other flowers are also grown after every destination point but orchids are at a higher side and butterflies all around. The lanes outside should have cutest carpets (noddy ones) with roses spread on them and with palaces all around for every girl is a princess and a princess marries a prince charming, so for that every guy automatically becomes prince.
A princess lives in the most splendiferous palace with the most resplendent antiques. Her palace has different quarters and her quarter has a chocolate room with never ending chocolates .. a spa room where she gets to relax after her shopping .. a play room with all sorts of stuff toys, and barbie dolls, kitchen set, doctor set, whatever she desires .. a lays, fanta, maggi party room with never ending food, an ice cream room .. a ball gown party room where she gets to party the way she wants to, not always in a typical princess style, i mean the way she wants to carry out, a lounge bar room with unlimited liquor especially vodka and tequilla, an accessories room where she has this matching accessory with every attire she desires to wear, then a room with all the splendid dresses she wants to wear, and then a shoe room with the most ravishing heels, and then a bags room with the most stunning bags kept all around and then her master bedroom with all pink walls, a princess bed with all the amazing novels in the shack present besides her and most importantly her guy to get whatever she desires, to do all her work, even if that means to get a glass of water :P .. with limousines parked outside her palace..and and how can i forget the slumber party room where the most amazing fun can be carried out, the cartoon room (now that is where all the games can be played, even if that means the game of powerpuff girls) .. the swimming pool area .. a romeo juliet balcony .. and many others. private jets are there so that we can fly to every place with subject to our mood. and the list is really long and I am very very tired.. n did I mention that we fly in the air like jetsons did but here we don't even have traffic jams .. and could even visit the universe whenever we feel like and guys getting pregnant and not girls.
And most importantly, a girl wants the guy who cares for her and loves her, loves her and loves her, for love includes everything even the care part as well  and most importantly who doesn't lie and cheat and a world full of happiness :):)


Now sweetz, I hope I have mentioned all your wishes, though I have a bit of add ons from my side as well and a bit of my imagination has been done. I hope I haven't missed anything for even I have, you still can't do anything about it. It is my baby and I can do whatever I feel like with this.

nikzz :)

You startled me by telling that you love someone else

Your lies and betrayal were far beyond your love for someone else

I still cherish the time that I had it in my hand

But the truth holds my steps taken in your direction with a dark band

Your smile even for your someone else makes even my day worthwhile

But my sorrows increases my craving for you ruining all the mile

I try harder and harder everyday to get you out of my mind

But the crack in my heart still holds the emptiness

I am not selfish because your worries ponder in my mind and heart all the times

But what I feel for you is beyond the saga of your love but it ain't divine ..!

nikzz :)

You were all silent when you came in

You were all silent throughout the time we were together

You were all silent when i wanted you to speak those three magical words

You were all silent when I needed you

You were all silent when i questioned you

You were all silent when I wanted you to talk to me

You were all silent when I wanted you to understand me, reciprocate to me

You were all silent when I wanted you to love me

The only time you spoke was when you wanted to defend her, prove your love for her

And silently you walked out leaving me behind to grab her hand without even thinking about me

And I silently accepted everything like a looser because I lost it with fate "ONCE AGAIN" but this time I was done trying and i couldn't do it anymore

nikzz :)

I miss the time when you used to take my name with a smile on your face

Although I could not see it but i could feel it and sense it

I miss the time when you used to talk to me entire night till morning at those unusual hours

Although it was quite annoying waiting for your call bt talking 2 you made me feel ecstatic

I miss the time when you used to tell me every minute details of your day spent

Although it never included me but listening to it made me felt important

I miss the time when I used to wake you up every morning

Although I wished to be there with you just to see you getting up but listening to your voice every single morning made me perky

I miss the time when you used to sleep over the phone while talking to me

Although i used to feel miserable that you slept but what made me blessed was the fact that your day ended with me

I miss the time when you used to say sorry at every little thing

Although half the time you didn't even mean them but listening to all your cute sorries brought a smile on my veil

I miss the time when you used to tell me every shit crappy cooked up story of yours

Although i never felt like buying them but listening to them made me feel elated

I miss the time when we were trying exploring each other

Although you left us in between the journey but that few months made me fell for you

I miss the time when I irritated you and yelled at you for every little thing

Although I never liked doing it but it made me felt that I owe you

I miss the time when you were mine

Although you never said that but I always considered you to be mine

nikzz :)

As soon as my heart started speaking things off to you
As soon as my heart started connecting its heart strings to your heart
You and your heart made my heart realized to not to trust any heart who just started healing
but once again got broken now can never ever get mended because it had lost himself
But i still have that small hope which resides in my heart because you resides in my prayers
and i trust my prayers which lies above my faith in us ..!


nikzz :)

I hate the fact that i fell for you,
knowing everything but i still fell for you,
i love our convos because you ridicule me everytime,
but by mentioning her you disappoint me bringing sour times.
the satire and sarcasm in your talks really turns me on,
you got the talent to drive me crazy even after hurting me makes me feel wrong,
why do you do this because i know that you know that i love you
you have made me harsh. you have made me weak, you have made me sick but i still love you,
i sometimes feel like a slut which is surely not your fault
but it is you who made me love you
will you ever come to me and tell me
"I am sorry baby, I am all yours"?


nikzz :)

drifting away with the flow of sea,

flowers blooming their buds with the buzzing bee,

sand in the water illuminating in the intensity of sun,

but the world still looks abstruse despite having the vindicated run

Open the palm of your hands and let sagacity roar

The power, prestige and interests would magnify your soul and open the doors

The blue world will only contrite you at every step

But the freshness and strive inside you would barricade altruism and make everything apparent


nikzz :)

The world is a wonderful place to abode in, 

No matters what happens still we remain abide in ..

It gives you time to experience happiness, sorrows, love and life, 

But eventually it makes you strong and someday brings you into limelight ..

The nature takes a toll on its own,

Sometimes it gives you wings to fly and sometimes dooms you by dismissing your armor on a long run zone .. 

Though every cookie crumbles and someday gets his share of cake ,

Wantonness may block your pathway but waffles would brighten up your way with a hope of ray ..!

nikzz :)